As Christians, this is a very applicable statement to each of our walks with Christ... We do things that are pleasing to Christ, but then turn back around and do things that make us feel like Monsters because we have conviction in our hearts from the Holy Spirit... This is a feeling I've been feeling a lot lately... It's hard, ya know, I mean, I'm not trying to make an excuse for myself or anything but it's hard to break away from your old self when trying to create a new one. These past few months I've been battling myself and Satan both just to become someone new, someone Christ would approve of, someone I can be happy with when I lay down at night knowing that if tomorrow doesn't come, I'll make Christ proud when I get up there.
This statement, Sometimes I feel like a monster, sometimes I feel like a saint, is a lyric to the song "Favorite Disease" by Thousand Foot Krutch... It seems like everytime I start to fall away from God, He sends me a new song or a new album or a new band for that matter, in this case, it was just a new album, The Flame In All of Us by TFK. Particularly the songs "Falls Apart" and "Favorite Disease". The lyrics in these songs apply to my life so much right now it's not funny and the more I listen to them the more they get to me.
Basically what I'm asking for is prayer, for strength and courage in this battle against myself and Satan, I can't do it on my own, only with and through Christ. I ask, and this is rare, that if you read this and really think you have some helpful advice, firstly, post it on here so I can re-read it, and secondly, if you see me somewhere, just stop me if you/I have the time and tell me, talk to me, and thirdly, if they're Bible verses, write them down or make sure I write them down so I can see them later...
With thanks and love
Travis
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Travis,
It's great to know that I am not the only one like this. Although I know from God's Words that others take on the same challenges we do, it's great to hear someone's testimony that just reinforces it. No matter how hard it may be, we know that our struggles are not in vain:
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
James 1:2-3
And about being able to lie down at night knowing I am happy with myself; I know that I will never please myself just as I am, only God can fulfill that need. No matter how I may see myself, I know that God can look past the crap and horrible sins and he can still love me. I mean, just think of that, wow! Even when I find no value in myslef, God sees me as priceless! Every night I just have to come before God in awe of who he is, that he ALREADY took care of all my sin, and that gives me amzing peace. We just need to get together to talk again, that was great! Love you man!
Andrew
come take masterlife with us THIS SUNDAY.
Thanks Guys! and I'll try Polly
trav, we have 5 youth taking it this time. you guys would be all together and j is teaching the youth session during SS...you know where to meet and you already have the books :)
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