School is out... Yay!
Summer is not cold... YAY!
Summer is not terribly hot... yet :(
I have a job still...Yay!
My guitar came...YAY!!!
It's harder than I had expected... oh well I'll get over it
My spiritual life has hit a low... ouch
I'm struggling to pick it back up... double ouch
I have more skeletons in my closet than a moratorium (no I do not know what it means but I expect it has skeletons)
So now that I'm done with my smart-alleck posting.... here goes the "real thing" although I don't think it is going to be too long. First, you may have noticed it said May not June, that's because I started this post in May but had to leave to go to Carrie's with mom for a fun day with the boys... more about that later... so I'm continuing this in June... Yesterday (yes later has come) mom and I went to Carrie's and picked them up for a day out of fun... We went to the Nelson something or other Art Museum... being an art fan, I LOVED IT!!!! I ACTUALLY GOT TO SEE A REAL POLLOCK AND A REAL MONET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (a few Monet's actually)
It was a fun time and I'm glad I went
I was thinking about doing this in another separate blog but I decided not to....
{THOSE OF YOU WHO DON"T LIKE SAD/ OR SOMEWHAT FRIGHTENING STORIES...STOP READING HERE}
I would have titled it poison: the slow slippage like sewage into my small world...Lately I've been feeling like I'm a college student stuck in a high school student's life. I watch tv shows and movies, or go places, like the art museum, and see college students living life like they want to, not having to worry about parents nagging them (sorry mom, no offence, you don't really nag me) They have fun and enjoy life, they have boyfriends/girlfriends who care about them and for them to care about, and I'm realizing that I don't want this highschool life, I want that life. but really i'm just being a typical human, always wanting what we can't have. I, as a human, have emotional and mental needs, but i don't really know, i could just be so lost in my own little world i've built up around me that i could be a maniac and not even realize this... i want that life now, i want someone to care for/about me. i want to be able to express myself with art and not care about who sees it or what they think... idk now i'm just rambling... maybe i am just crazy... it sure feels that way sometimes. more on this later....
4 comments:
"My guitar came...YAY!!!"
Very cool
"My spiritual life has hit a low... ouch
I'm struggling to pick it back up... double ouch"
I'm praying for you, Travis.
"I have more skeletons in my closet than a moratorium (no I do not know what it means but I expect it has skeletons)"
Sometimes the light in the closet needs to be turned on and the door opened so that others can tell you that there aren't as many skeletons as you thought. (also, a moratorium does not contain skeletons as it is an abstract noun).
"I ACTUALLY GOT TO SEE A REAL POLLOCK AND A REAL MONET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
AWESOME! I'm sure it means a whole lot more to you than it would to me, but I know (just barely) enough about art to know that would be very exciting!
"a typical human, always wanting what we can't have."
Amen to that.
"i want that life now, i want someone to care for/about me."
Ouch, that hurt MY feelings... just kidding. I know what you mean... I think.
"maybe i am just crazy..."
No shame in that! They can cart us off to the asylum together!
I think it is human nature to "wish away" where we are now. By that I mean, we want so badly to be in another stage of life... college, marriage, kids, whatever... that we miss out on what God had for us right where we are. Maybe this season of discontent and growing is to prepare you for what will come next, but don't wish it away Trav. Live in it fully. Soak it up like a sponge and know that you will take it with you into all those other stages that WILL come.
And know that it's not just high schoolers who feel this way. We "grown-ups" struggle with this too at times... You are not alone.
Thanks Grace...
I was driving in my truck yesterday contemplating some fairly gargantuous events in my life right now and heard this song on the radio that brought tears to my eyes (and it's not even a sad song, but the message of the very first line was God's encouragement to me...and I know it to be true)
"Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary
You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles"
Draw from it what you will...I found the words to be powerful to my spirit. Fight the good fight!!!
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